and i feel.... longing

Hold me even though I know you're leaving
And show me all the reasons you would stay
It's just enough to feel your breath on mine
To warm my soul and ease my mind
You've gotta hold me and show me now
Give me just one part of you to cling to
And keep me everywhere you are
It's just enough to to steal my heart and run
Then fade out with the falling sun
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've gotta hold me and keep me now
Tell me how someday you'll be returning
And maybe, maybe I'll believe
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really far
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really gone
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've gotta hold me and maybe I'll believe..
So hold me even though I know you're leaving.

and it's true. and they are. and i want to hear it because it will make today better and that's the world when today is all we have. biting my lip until it bleeds won't get me anywhere. it will only give me the taste of blood. i'm too terrified to speak. every word comes down with harsh condemnation. condemnation or a questioning. yes something is wrong today. no i don't know what it is. please help me. what the hell is wrong with my world today? why am i so alone in the presence of those who love me? and i just want so much to be held. and i just want it to be okay just for today. and i just want someone to want to hold me, make me happy, want me. and i don't want to be needy but god help me, i am. and i am terrified that it will annoy you. so i'll sit here, screaming. and praying that what's eating me on the inside won't find it's way through.