drink up baby down

how do i begin to say what you mean to me? you are changing my life moment by moment, but just because i'm ready to begin being happy doesn't mean i won't need you anymore. i'll need all of you, so please be there in my moments of weakness. i promise to try my best to remember you love me.

the way you hug me and look at me and touch those hands you love, the way you listen and know how the world is bearing down on me. how you sing to me. you see this deep deep pain that breaks me apart. you see all the injustice, the darkness, the opposition that makes me ache. and you stand beside me and pull me away from the edge.

all i want is to keep you. keep you near me. because i'm safe there. because you saw yourself in me. and you're begging me to let go. and there is a peace in me now so new that it's almost frightening because of the uncertainty of whats going to happen. i am better for having known you.

you hurt with me and for me. that makes the difference. you are the best thing to happen to me in a long time. i spent so much time being afraid that i almost forgot what happiness is. there is no thanking you. just promise you'll never leave.

i love you.