unobtainable

sometimes i still feel the same old thing. this whole promise is just a girl in love with a boy, curled at his feet. his adoring pet with those sad, hurting eyes, begging to be loved the same way. and sometimes i feel like there's nothing i have left to give, and i'd like to not be the only one putting anything in. i give what i do not have.

and i have sat watching the little red drops fill my bathwater over what i feel i cannot do. and for what i feel you will not.

and all i have ever wanted is for someone to love me the way i have loved you. to hurt and wish and die for me. and to give what they do not have.

so this girl will love this boy, with tears in her heart and pain in her eyes, until one day she cannot love anymore. if only you would save her first.