mad world

for a brief moment in the concept of an entire life time something touched me. and although there have been several moments like this in my life, it has been quite some time now. and your voice filled up my heart. i wept inside. in the swirl of color, in the dark, we danced. and i felt the first hint of pain. because you see, i want to give you everything, but i don't think you want it from me. though i know the fault lies in me, please do your best to protect me from the dark i'm so afraid of. i get the feeling that it's hiding in the shadows and every now and again it stares me in the face. and the truth is, i'm not a let down to you but i am a let down all the same. and though you don't believe me, i know the truth. and jealousy kills. my mind keeps going back to the night you so desperately asked me to fall asleep with you. you had a dream of holding me. you wanted me st stay. you asked me. i miss that feeling. so i won't ask again for a while. i know you love me, but i want to hear you say it. i know i ask too much of you, but i don't cry over just anyone. i love you. will you try not to break me? will you always love me too? am i in good hands?