there's no place like home....

unless you don't have one.

the last few days have taken a heavy toll on me. between the nightmares, the stories, and the forced and unwilling confessions of my soul, it's no wonder my next thoughts are of dropping a working blowdryer into my bath water. for shame. i feel out of sight is so terribly out of mind when i'm the one who's not around. i've lost so much in so short of a time and i keep thinking, the last thing i had of my own was the knowledge of evil. but even that has found its way to the surface.

did i ever make you happy? do you ever stop and think about missing me? and all this time i'm lying in an ocean of death and you've stopped believing in me. but hey, we can't all be the people we used to be. the good souls with the loving hearts who have the best thing in the world for them but abuse it to the brink of health loss.


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and all i want now is to bare my soul to you...