paula

i want to be like that girl in the song tonight. i want to be watched over, guarded quietly. i want that security and safety that i have so rarely felt in these last few years. to let this little body, so ready to collapse, take that break in a place where i find comfort. i want silent notions that "i'll be here when you wake up." i want to know that even for just tonight, it's all okay. i want to be that girl in the song. i want so desperately so very badly so overwhelmingly to be taken care of. i want to know that i'll be loved in the morning. i want to lay my head down tonight and not be tense and not feel hurt. i want to lay my head down and feel like i'm not alone. i want someone to take the hurt away, take the dirty things and ease an aching soul. because i feel afraid. i want to be looked after tonight, quietly and carefully and "silently, not to disturb"

i want to be paula