rap-sody in blue blue blue: josh-ua's song

but you will never, never find what i wanted to give you. funny how much this hurts. it's been a long time coming, but you could have said goodbye. and i can't even cry for you. because i know how much time i've wasted crying. you're not worth this to me. not anymore. i don't deserve the pain. my words to you are short and few: i will always love you. you are always welcome in my home. you are not welcome in my heart. now to the world. i'm hurting. i'm screaming and fighting this weakness in my soul. it will always haunt me. that's what wounds do. but enough of the pain, i'm going to get better.

the lights are glowing and the books are smouldered ash. your words. your heart. you lie. and i will suffer for you no longer. the glint of your smile in the summer nightlight moonshine, too drunk to say congratulations. i'm not your baby anymore.

i'll understand if it's too much to ask, but you said you'd be here if i needed... well i need you now, please come. you should know that you make me feel the most beautiful anf most wanted i have in more than months, so if it's not too much to ask, could you take care of me for a little while?