it's been days

and i haven't needed anything. i havent felt weak. i haven't wanted a place to go to. it's been days on days. but the moment stops here. the moment has run out. and yes, i do come to you, but only because you care and because you said you'd be there if i need you. today i do. i feel like you'll help me when i need it. my job is to figure out what i can manage and what's too big for me to do alone. and i need someone to go to. and maybe that's just me, but please don't think this is something that will go away if i take a walk in the woods. don't worry. it's okay. i'm used to the gradual wearing down of the ability of those around me to keep hearing all my shit. but the solution is only as simple as someone for me to talk to. so be that for me. please. i love you. it's only today.