slacker

i'm falling in. i can't keep it up. and in this emotional cancer, eating away at my soul with all the beautiful things, i am learning my weakness. selfish. because, as fearful as i am of it all, i am still spoiled. that's your fault too. you spoiled me.



i've been....
keeping it up
and
falling asleep
at the wheel.




amid the sad songs and glossy pages, old t-shirts and clean fresh cotton, i have found a lasting peace. i am enough to get me through. in the darkness that i am so afraid of, i find the strength to fall. the heart to let go. the peace to sleep. all is well, you all are taking care of me




this fear is about death.



i love you