tired

tired of not being enough. tired of being forgotten. tired of it all. maybe it's just time to go away. maybe i should just let it all go. maybe then somone will remember me. maybe then i'll be important. maybe then it will all just go away. would you miss me?

i am so sick of this life i've been living. i'm pouring my heart out over everything in sight. and it's nto doing me any good. because no one minds what happens to me. you're all tired of hearing my story, all tired of wanting to help. i guess i'm giving up too. i'll be leaving soon, unless i find a reason to stay. i don't care about the timing, none of you ever did.

so if this world kicks me when i'm down just once more, i swear to god i'm kicking back. i'm either going to take back my life from the rest of this shit or give to it.

i'm nearing a threshold. fuck the rescue, i'm tired of looking for something else.

but in the back of my head is a crying little girl, begging for someone to hold her.

you take it for granted. i'm not getting well, and i'm tired of fighting for the help. god please someone do something. someone save me. show me it's okay to cry, that hurting is a part of life and that i'm not a burden just taking up air. show me you love me.

i'm just so tired.