it's over

one last fight in the darkness, but this time, i come out on top. it's all over now. it's all gone. i'm free. but part of me still mourns. and somewhere inside i'm still afraid, like this is all a dream and the monsters will come out of the dark in my sleep and snatch away my sanity like so many years ago. i am feeling things like never before. things like peace. i walk now into the unkown. arms stretched out to the darkening skies, embracing the maelstrom. for the first time in my life today, i saw myself with my head up, headed straight into hope. reaching out into a unique strength that gives me the spark i need to light the fuse and ignite my soul. i'm shooting off to the beautiful darkness beyond the mediocre pain that has been my life. i have never felt so alive, so sane, so freely infatuated with my life.