volcano

i am at a state of confusion with you, but i'm not going to be sorry for things that aren't my fauklt anymore. i am hurting and starving to death for fucking affection and you keep turning me out into the world claiming "later" but i fear later won't get here. do not make the mistake that i'm looking for a good fuck. i'm looking to be held for a second out of millions that make up a life and i am craving somone who could just let me rave and cry and scream and let it out of me because the more i keep it here, the more i want to bleed it out. a simple kind word, a moment, something. you, him, anyone, i just need to remember i'm loved. and still in all of this, i believe in you. i think you are amazing, i think you are good, and i do love you. but the point of all of this is that i need you right now. i won't take up too much of your life, just please god help me out. if you care at all, help me out. you promised to help me up.......... make it up to me already.

i love you, you are good to me, and this is not a confession of regret. i have none.