write my name somewhere safe

and i just don't want to hurt anymore. so someone keep me safe. because i feel like my skies are falling. i feel like this world is ending. i don't want to want to die anymore. it's taking the life from me. i don't want to be strong anymore. and i want to tell you everything, but you have to take care of me. i can't do this alone. this pain is deep. it's killing my soul. and i feel more than ever singular, alone, and so fucking helpless. it's making me sick. and you just keep pleading for me to hold out a little longer. i am so scared to say that i don't think i can. and yes, i do want this to stop. because i feel like tears are wasted on me. and i'm so close to it it scares me. and i have these nightmares. i have these haunted thoughts of places i don't want to go. and i have lost my meaning. and even someone being good to me scares me. that's what my life has become. it's wrecked and i just want it all to go away. because i'm here now, and the saftey is gone away. and i don't want to dream these dreams. the monsters in my closet scare me. end, lights out, gone, over. but i can't. you would be sad without me. tell me. please keep me here. keep me safe. i'm holding on, i'm being strong like they all ask of me. but i'm slowing down, i'm getting tired of holding this weight on my heart. i can't hold out much longer.
i want to die today